My birthday is Saturday. I don’t have any real friends, my parents despise me, and my sister her boyfriend and there daughter will be in florida. So I guess ill be spending it alone. I can’t remember when life became so meaningless. But Friday will be Friday, Saturday will be Saturday, and just like every week Sunday will be Sunday. No one will bat an eye, and besided facebook telling people its my birthday nobody will know. Happy birthday… And the days go on just like every week, month, year, or decade. Birthdays no longer matter. Welcome to real life.
I keep having dreams about you. Not every night, but every couple weeks. And its only when I don’t smoke before bed. But ur always crying in my dreams. And I’m always there to comfort u. I don’t like those dreams.
this is wierd. its only been 6 months and i can remember almost nothing about you. i guess its not a bad thing, but time just moves so quick. almost a year ago you forgave me and things were good for a while. now a year later we dont even talk. time flies. growing up does suck. you lose the really good things and you cant get rid of the bad things. i miss high school.
I’m learning more and more what being an adult is all about, I work too much, I haven’t gotten a good night sleep in almost a year, I’m always tired and fuckin miserable my friends are nonexistant. Now I know why my parents are so fuckin bitter. Idk if I’m strong enough for this. Is it bad to think about dying this young?
its cool that you’re dating a fat guy, it gives you the option to leave a hickey on each one of his neck rolls every day of the week
they were trying to figure out why blood was coming out of my tear ducts while i was asleep.
turns out i have a disease called sympthetic nervous system disorder.
im not gonna get to into it but basically my body releases too much adrenaline in normal situations, causing my face and chest to get red and blotchy, my heart to race, my hands to get sweaty, and apparently make blood vessels pop and blead through your tear ducts.
actually that last one was cause by the massive amounts of alcohol i consumed just hours before being rushed to the hospital.
cool story.
can you remember a time i had any of those symptoms, cause it just hit me that i get them all every day, in different situations. look it up, sympathetic nervous system disorder
My world is upside down right now, I just worked 3 days in a row, Friday I worked 8 hours, 11 pm to 7 am, then Saturday and Sunday I worked 2 16 hour shifts, 3pm to 7 am. I haven’t been able to sleep since Friday, literally. I can’t tell if what I’m seeing is real or imaginary, everything feels like a dream. How long can you live without sleep? I think I’m reaching my limit..
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